Crossroads

Left??? Right??? Straight or Back up???

When you know you have done wrong in the past and currently your experiencing a dose of your own medicine you just cant help but feel helpless. Blame, guilt and resentment.   Blame is what you feel towards the person after the hardship you've been through, everything will simply crash. You feel guilty because you know somehow you have been to that road before and suddenly you are back once again. Resentment the mere fact that you felt that all will turn out just fine you discover too many ghosts in the past. 

Growing up like other girls I'm dreaming of a fairy tale. Believer of happily ever after and fairy godmothers. Sad but true life isn't like that. It more harsh than you can imagine. It wasn't fair after all and more often than not road seems so narrow than you expected. 

I'm at the crossroad trying to figure out which way should I go.  I feel lost and needed to be guided however, all my life I've been so weak but its time to make a stand.