today i woke up still feeling devastated and experiencing chest pains. there are so many questions in my heart. i have concluded that yes its true that love hurts. it can destroy you and your whole being. spending years with someone and suddenly waking up you have lost the person is disaster. it kills me... makes me weap because everywhere i look it reminds me of him. i hate myself because i cannot fight the feeling
yesterday i almost got hit by a car crossing the street spaced out doesn't help.. i try to be strong. i dont wanna discuss these things to any of my friends. i dont want them see me mourn but God please help me. the whole day at work i have been a pain in the ass.
i hurt, i extremely hurt. i wanna heal, i want to forget, i wanna move on because i know you wont come back ever again.. how can i start? how do i deal with myself? how will i answer the thousand whys in me?
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