my dear mentor

i got home earlier than the usual but the same working hours ... i worked for 13 hours today. my toes are aching and my legs are tired..  my journey to this new position is absolutely challenging, in most days i would be horrible being labelled as the dragon lady... yes i do take my accountability seriously but just recently my mentor died. i feel devastated and disappointed...


so it has been rough in the last couple of days...  from that time i saw him on coma he has never left my mind, daily i would recall how he has treated me well as part of his training team.. he would make insulting jokes but i never get offended... he was very graceful in delivering hurtful words that you might find funny because you know he dont mean it.. he would compliment me with my nice bags... well, i couldnt blame him because until his last breath he didnt reveal his true sexuality... seeing him laying in the ICU bed tore my heart into bits and pieces,, i cried and talked to him silently and hoping he would wake up evenif i know that he wont. that night i dreamt of him, he talked to me in my dreams saying all is gonna be fine... i told him how i am happy to have known him and loved him as my director for training...

with that incident i learned one thing, life is really too short... no matter how great you are in the system ,,, once you died all that left are memories..  live life, enjoy life and love life... i miss you